Motivation

When this idea was presented to me about training for a fitness competition, my gut reaction was an undeniable "NO". There is no way I would ever consider something as crazy as that. Thoughts of masculine, overly tanned, muscular women came to mind. I have no desire to look like that and I don't understand anyone that would. This thought of it is just too big to imagine.

Through some research and heart to heart talks with Jason (my trainer/friend/motivator/Fame Competitor) I decided that this goal might not be so far out of my reach.

There are many categories for women and I was pleasantly surprised at just how beautiful and feminine the female competitors are. The costumes are amazing.

But, still in the back of my mind those negative thoughts linger. "Can I look like that?" "Is it possible for me to get that lean?" And, the worst one of all..."Do I have enough confidence to get up there in front of all those people in a bikini?"

Instead of just brushing the idea off, I went ahead and took a leap of faith. I threw my name in the game! I instantly felt a jolt of excitement and had visions of me prancing about in stilettos and a barely there swimsuit.

A few days later I went against my better judgement and let the cat out of the bag to a few friends and family. What I got was a little surprising. The people who I thought would be supportive weren't, and those who I thought wouldn't care were very encouraging.

This was a definitely eye-opener for me. I was getting support from the most unlikeliest of places. The fact that some of the skeptics made their opinions quite clear about this goal only motivates me more.

I know there are people who feel like I can't do it. And, frankly some days I feel like that as well. But, at the end of the day, this journey is about ME. I need to prove to myself that I am capable of climbing this huge mountain.

This is going to be the toughest thing I have ever done. The only person standing in my way, is me! I keep telling myself "I CAN DO IT BECAUSE I DESERVE IT."

The end result I'm hoping for, a happier, healthier and accomplished me.